SweetHeart
When Will it Be Okay
"Dullahan River Decay (you never call me)" Acrylic, Fake Blood, Embroidery, Gold Dust, on Unstretched Raw Canvas, 3’6” x 6’3”, 2018
"Resolution" Acrylic, Gold Dust, on Unstretched Raw Canvas, 10’ x 4’9”, 2017
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I Just Want Resolution
Grip onto me with your lust If my friendship is true then I'll let you take my love If I say, "I love you" break my bones Snap my wrists covered in blood Though my knuckles are bleeding this sap is not innocent And though I wish to tear your world apart with my teeth It's sadly ironic it's you who's come to reap what I have left Grip my neck as hard as you can Crush my hopes and dreams Crush my body, just like flowers beneath your rough hands And even as my blood pools around me I'm let to believe Oh god, you're not the one killing me But how can that be when you're breathing And I'm left faithless If I'm the victim then why do I feel like the villain? I'm drowning but you keep telling me it's the other way around But why aren't you struggling? Why are you laughing at the tears in my eyes as I gasp for air? I came here for solace but I was given nothing but bad memories And was told to make something of them And instead of solidarity I received pity There is no resolution in drowning in your agony There is no solace in picking at the scab that will never heal And so, I chose to sleep with my demons Claws and teeth will comfort me Since your soft flesh only cut me And I will hold them close to me when I dream of you Because I know they will always be there to keep me safe And I know they will always tell the truth If humans are inherently evil what is a hell hound to me or you You've beat all the good left in me And I'm soon doomed to repeat your blasphemy This is not resolution If I have to shake the hands that tore my dreams right out from my scalp There is no such thing as feeling resolved When all you know is the crimes of Gods |
"Don’t Touch Me (ode to her)" Acrylic, Fake Blood, Makeup, Embroidery, on Unstretched Raw Canvas, 4’9” x 6’5”, 2016
The Elements ✪
This body of work is from the summer semester I spent at the Ox-Bow school of art in Michigan, Summer 2018. This was from a painting class called "Painting Turned on its Head" taught by the lovely Paula Wilson. All works are oil paintings with various elements of nature embedded in them on varied surfaces.
Artist statement:
A pentacle has five points which represent the five elements, fire, air, water, earth, and spirit. These base elements are very important in both the way we interact with the world and form ourselves. I spent a month in a landscape that allowed for me to become closer to these elements. In these paintings I have formed the elements of the landscape into personified figures that depict their personalities. These beings were depicted in the way that they manifested to me on my journey rather than the way they would typically be thought of.
Here fire was blue and strong and brought life and construction though its bright fury. Here air was calm and fragrant, bringing humming birds and the sound of sleep. Here water brought death but also fruit and life. Here earth brought mischief, creation and friendship. And here spirit brought something without words, like an ice cold fear but also tears that lingered from joy.
The five paintings were presented with a sixth work, the artists themselves. While these works were based heavily on nature it was important to keep in mind that the human is also a part of nature for we are all animals. And like the human cannot be separated from nature the artist also cannot be separated from the art. My hands are just as a part of the painting as the paint is.
Artist statement:
A pentacle has five points which represent the five elements, fire, air, water, earth, and spirit. These base elements are very important in both the way we interact with the world and form ourselves. I spent a month in a landscape that allowed for me to become closer to these elements. In these paintings I have formed the elements of the landscape into personified figures that depict their personalities. These beings were depicted in the way that they manifested to me on my journey rather than the way they would typically be thought of.
Here fire was blue and strong and brought life and construction though its bright fury. Here air was calm and fragrant, bringing humming birds and the sound of sleep. Here water brought death but also fruit and life. Here earth brought mischief, creation and friendship. And here spirit brought something without words, like an ice cold fear but also tears that lingered from joy.
The five paintings were presented with a sixth work, the artists themselves. While these works were based heavily on nature it was important to keep in mind that the human is also a part of nature for we are all animals. And like the human cannot be separated from nature the artist also cannot be separated from the art. My hands are just as a part of the painting as the paint is.
