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Poems From the 2010’s: Collection 3

3/25/2022

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1. Will You Still Love Me 2. Buy One Get One Free 3. Today 4. I Laugh With Mirth
5. HIM 6. Brain 7. I'm Dead, I Think?

1. Will You Still Love Me

Will you still love me when I can no longer remember your name 
Will you still love me even when I can no longer see you again
Will you still love me even if it causes you pain

Tell me please
Today I smile 
Today you smile 
But can you say that today will always stay?

Will you still love me when I no longer can smile 
Will you still love me when I can no longer sand on my own
Will you still love me when I force you alone

Today everything is perfect 
Today I am happy 
But can you say that today will never break away. 
I hope you will

Now your smile is fading 
Now my life is darning 
Will you still love me when I'm gone
Will you still love me?

2. Buy One Get One Free

Four arms are better than one
Two heads will reign supreme
I am two in one
Listen to the beat of my hearts
I am you and you are me

Sale on me
Half price and get the depression for free
Two for one
I'm a bargain
Buy one get one free

I’m consolidated and liquidated
I'm subpar on clearance
More than one mind
More than one time
Don't break up me and me

Sale on me
Half price and get the depression for free
Two for one
I'm a bargain
Buy one get one free

Maybe one day (one day)
I'll be free
From this cage
One day (one day)
I'll be just me
Plan as my eyes can see

Sale on me
Half price and get the depression for free
Two for one
I'm a bargain
Buy one get one free

3. Today

Today I woke up and I found I was not the same 
For some strange reason I had gone insane
The hands on my arms had switched
And I soon found myself somewhere I did not know 
But for me I did know where I was
Why is it that 
I don't want to hear your voice until you speak 
I don't miss you until the sun goes away 
Why is it 
I'm okay with you being so far away 
Why is if that at night I feel like you are here with me 
Why is it I don't feel you until the light leaves
When you are my sun
I woke up this morning 
And I found my head was on backward
Somehow it had found its way to be completely wrong
And why, oh why, was my ribs burning from anger this morning 
Why, oh why 
I have nothing sacred
I shout it to the sky's

Why is it I feel bland so fast 
How can I be so warm yet I am freezing cold 
Why is it I feel this way today 
When I woke up my feet were backward 
My legs bend all the wrong ways 
I was able to do literally everything but what was right.
So tell me why


4. I Laugh With Mirth

A war wages between us all 
Between roping our flesh 
Or taking a fall 
There is no way to stop this madness
When you're falling through time and space 
Why, I could have had this
When the acidic screeching of harpies is all I have to credit 
And when the putrid stench of failure is all I've made 
Is it safe to say all is well
Perhaps it would be me who killed the king 
I took his rings and crown 
And pretended to be him as I danced around 
Three feet off the ground 
It would be funny to think I miss it 
Being the ruler of filth
A war can never be won 
Not when both sides are being fought by the same man 
How could he see the opposing so clearly
Why it's simple 
His javelin dripped in his own crimson vitality 
Yet he is that one to cause such fatality 
What a pitiful soul he is
When the flaming fury of God’s wrath is all I have to hold 
And the blood sodden rages of lost souls is all I own 
Is it safe to say all is well
Perhaps once upon a time there was somebody he cared for 
But the life drained from him 
It left him cold 
And I stole his riches 
And I stole his curs 
Nobody can bring me back 
I'll be driving the black hers
To the graveyard of the filth we once ruled over 
The sight of the battles that took all the lives 
Of the men who burned bright as the nebula 
I will always see them 
And so shall you


5. HIM

They all love HIM more than me 
I wish I could be as alluring as HE
I'd love to triad places with HIM
But I often forget that I could never be 
And I often forget I'm unloved

I know why HIS cold charms win 
But by god my heart needs some care 
I know I'll never make it out of this but by the gods I want to be free of HIM
If I can't have what HE has

6. Brain

I don't know where I'm going
I could tell you who I am but I have too many faces 
I can't tell you who I was 
Every time I got shot down I got back up but when I stood 
I found there were more copies of me
I split and no we don't seem to fit back together 
All my problems stem from one thing 
It's a funny little bit about me
Part of my brain seems to be missing 
And you can tell me I'm all lies 
But I find it hard to make up the part where I simply am not human 
No I'm not a robot but maybe I should be 
If there was a way to glue me back together I would hope to it 
But screw it 
I came out not screaming and crying but ready to start dying

7. I'm Dead, I Think?

I don't think you ever saw your own face in the mirror 
I don't think you remember me
Do you remember 
Every time I see your eye I see it 
I remember it to 
I don't think I've ever seen myself smile 
Tell him I left it under the mat
Yes, the one outside the front door
Portal to hell
I can't see our reflections anymore
I need all of the attention
I drain of their soft hands and heavy wings
Won't you let me go
I don't know what my face looks like 
His face 
Send me an angel 
Save me from myself 
I'm running away again 
I keep dreaming about the apocalypse
I'm going to die 
I can’t stop it I can’t stop it 
I've accepted it 
Why have I taken morality
I felt the cold snow silence my heart
I saw the look of fear in the eyes of the damned
What is it
I'm ready to die 
For a moment I felt like I knew what it was
I saw for a moment what it meant to be dead
I saw myself cry
I'm shaking now
I don't remember my face
I feel the gun to my temple
Blade to my throat
Breeze on my sweat soaked face as I sit here
Knowing what comes next
Am I okay with mortality?
I'm shaking 


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