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Poems From the 2010’s: Collection 2

3/18/2022

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1. Were You Listening 2. The Man With Soulless Eyes 3. Missing 4. nomoreangles
5. I Just Want Resolution 6. Blasphemy  7. Vodka and Old Gods

1. Were You Listening?

Yesterday I thought I died 
But I was disappointed to find I was still alive 
I couldn't hear anyone speak 
But I saw their lips moving 
Were they talking to me?

2. The Man With Soulless Eyes

It's so cold here 
When I cry my tears freeze
With my clouded breath I can't see
I shout but my voice dies 
And I scream but it's only lies 
When I cry from my soulless eyes

It's so cold here
Give me the rains I want to steer! 
My love is cold like the snow so I'll 
Crash the carriage into the lifeless trees 
And let my bones rest in the snow covered leaves

My blood is a brilliant vermilion paint 
Melting the frost 
It turns to brown rust 
And I swear to God it will taint 
All the lovers who fallow 
Into passionless frost 
With their hearts beating so faint

Maybe twenty years from this time you'll find my bones 
Cold and alone 
Filed with moss and snow 
Let my sorrow wash over me and haunt me on the marrow
Then you won't be lost in my soulless eyes

My blood no matter how delicately it splashes on the white canvass 
Shall never be as brilliant as the stars that splatter the blackened sky 
And just as before 
When I close the door
My sore arms will turn from red to brown

And when I close my eyes I'll wish they were part of the sky

Their black and empty abyss are soulless as a night with no moon 
And without the moon I will crash this carriage 
Without la lune to illuminate the earth's winter skin 
I'll be lost in the pale flesh 
And be let to crash into the black bones of the forest
Spilling my blood so fresh

The forest empty as my eyes 

Will capture my soul when I die 
And I'll be lost to time 
Oh what a crime? 
I shan't be missed 
All those lies 
Ah yes, I'm the man with soulless eyes

3. Missing

It reminds me of something I can't remember
Like when you know you've lost something 
But you can't remember what you lost
And honestly, it's a bit like drinking cold coffee 
You can't quite enjoy the bitterness it brings you 
And honestly, I'm missing something important here
When I've proved myself right 
You still want to tell me I'm wrong 
And you can't give me what I want 
So why am I even trying 
You never were intriguing and I'm just going through the motions
Just going through the motions 
I can't and I won't let you know if I have emotions 
Nothing is pure or good with me so don't expect anything please
I'm sorry I made the mistake 
But I can't take back things like that, now can I?


4. nomoreangles

oh if you let us we will latch onto you and fall deeply madly infatuated with you too if you let us in we will grip onto everything and pull it apart let us live oh boy if you let us in we will pull at your wings mother me mercy i see youre angelic and i cannot resist oh the wings oh the feathers i cant help myself claws and eye extra limbs limping limping i cant help myself oh just you just you not revenge theres  no need for that i just want your feathers claws extra eye tall tall strike me down i know nothing about you i just want to someone like me ah no no no not again dont let yourself fall for another angel little demon boy demon boy dont do that no more angels no

5. I Just Want Resolution

Grip onto me with your lust
If my friendship is true then I'll let you take my love
If I say, "I love you" break my bones 
Snap my wrists covered in blood
Though my knuckles are bleeding this sap is not innocent 
And though I wish to tear your world apart with my teeth 
It's sadly ironic it's you who's come to reap what I have left
Grip my neck as hard as you can 
Crush my hopes and dreams
Crush my body, just like flowers beneath your rough hands 
And even as my blood pools around me I'm let to believe
Oh god, you're not the one killing me
But how can that be when you're breathing 
And I'm left faithless 
If I'm the victim then why do I feel like the villain?
I'm drowning but you keep telling me it's the other way around
But why aren't you struggling?
Why are you laughing at the tears in my eyes as I gasp for air?
I came here for solace but I was given nothing but bad memories 
And was told to make something of them 
And instead of solidarity I received pity 
There is no resolution in drowning in your agony 
There is no solace in picking at the scab that will never heal 
And so, I chose to sleep with my demons
Claws and teeth will comfort me 
Since your soft flesh only cut me
And I will hold them close to me when I dream of you
Because I know they will always be there to keep me safe 
And I know they will always tell the truth
If humans are inherently evil what is a hell hound to me or you 
You've beat all the good left in me
And I'm soon doomed to repeat your blasphemy 
This is not resolution 
If I have to shake the hands that tore my dreams right out from my scalp
There is no such thing as feeling resolved
When all you know is the crimes of Gods 

6. blasphemy

you'll never see me as a martyr in the eyes of your monotheistic god
the deities aren't man and they do not rule like your false kings
how can you pass judgment over me
how could i have been so wicked in the past life to deserve this
the fates have this planned out for me 
i will paint myself in the blood of your god so you will look at me
i am the man you need
i am your synthetic messiah
wash your bones with my holy tears
your western lord is the one i will bend 
my stigmata is infected as my wounds seep distrust

7. Vodka and Old Gods

It tastes like death and decay 
Even though it's sweet it rips the roof of my mouth 
It burns my stomach like acid 
But it calms my brain and restless heart beat 


My skull hurts, fighting tears that have been tugging at the corners of my eyes 
I'm so loved why am I so sad
My bones are cold as ice even when I'm wrapped in a thousand layers of black wool
My shoulders ache and my arms ache and my nails ache like I've been clawing out of the cold and cracked winter earth 
Bounding from the ground like spring itself 


My throat burns from fighting these tears 
I'm so loved but why then, why am I so achingly sad 
I'm wandering in a glass
I can see myself looking into my own eyes 
I'm empty and sad 
What do I want? 


Come with me let me take your pain away into the abyss
Whiteness blinds me as an angels’ voice sings 
Is she singing to me
Rolling in tears and dripping in sweat I drink fire 
Despite the burning in my eyes I don't think I'll be able to sleep for a thousand year


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