1. Will You Still Love Me 2. Buy One Get One Free 3. Today 4. I Laugh With Mirth 5. HIM 6. Brain 7. I'm Dead, I Think? 1. Will You Still Love Me Will you still love me when I can no longer remember your name Will you still love me even when I can no longer see you again Will you still love me even if it causes you pain Tell me please Today I smile Today you smile But can you say that today will always stay? Will you still love me when I no longer can smile Will you still love me when I can no longer sand on my own Will you still love me when I force you alone Today everything is perfect Today I am happy But can you say that today will never break away. I hope you will Now your smile is fading Now my life is darning Will you still love me when I'm gone Will you still love me? 2. Buy One Get One Free Four arms are better than one Two heads will reign supreme I am two in one Listen to the beat of my hearts I am you and you are me Sale on me Half price and get the depression for free Two for one I'm a bargain Buy one get one free I’m consolidated and liquidated I'm subpar on clearance More than one mind More than one time Don't break up me and me Sale on me Half price and get the depression for free Two for one I'm a bargain Buy one get one free Maybe one day (one day) I'll be free From this cage One day (one day) I'll be just me Plan as my eyes can see Sale on me Half price and get the depression for free Two for one I'm a bargain Buy one get one free 3. Today Today I woke up and I found I was not the same For some strange reason I had gone insane The hands on my arms had switched And I soon found myself somewhere I did not know But for me I did know where I was Why is it that I don't want to hear your voice until you speak I don't miss you until the sun goes away Why is it I'm okay with you being so far away Why is if that at night I feel like you are here with me Why is it I don't feel you until the light leaves When you are my sun I woke up this morning And I found my head was on backward Somehow it had found its way to be completely wrong And why, oh why, was my ribs burning from anger this morning Why, oh why I have nothing sacred I shout it to the sky's Why is it I feel bland so fast How can I be so warm yet I am freezing cold Why is it I feel this way today When I woke up my feet were backward My legs bend all the wrong ways I was able to do literally everything but what was right. So tell me why 4. I Laugh With Mirth A war wages between us all Between roping our flesh Or taking a fall There is no way to stop this madness When you're falling through time and space Why, I could have had this When the acidic screeching of harpies is all I have to credit And when the putrid stench of failure is all I've made Is it safe to say all is well Perhaps it would be me who killed the king I took his rings and crown And pretended to be him as I danced around Three feet off the ground It would be funny to think I miss it Being the ruler of filth A war can never be won Not when both sides are being fought by the same man How could he see the opposing so clearly Why it's simple His javelin dripped in his own crimson vitality Yet he is that one to cause such fatality What a pitiful soul he is When the flaming fury of God’s wrath is all I have to hold And the blood sodden rages of lost souls is all I own Is it safe to say all is well Perhaps once upon a time there was somebody he cared for But the life drained from him It left him cold And I stole his riches And I stole his curs Nobody can bring me back I'll be driving the black hers To the graveyard of the filth we once ruled over The sight of the battles that took all the lives Of the men who burned bright as the nebula I will always see them And so shall you 5. HIM They all love HIM more than me I wish I could be as alluring as HE I'd love to triad places with HIM But I often forget that I could never be And I often forget I'm unloved I know why HIS cold charms win But by god my heart needs some care I know I'll never make it out of this but by the gods I want to be free of HIM If I can't have what HE has 6. Brain I don't know where I'm going I could tell you who I am but I have too many faces I can't tell you who I was Every time I got shot down I got back up but when I stood I found there were more copies of me I split and no we don't seem to fit back together All my problems stem from one thing It's a funny little bit about me Part of my brain seems to be missing And you can tell me I'm all lies But I find it hard to make up the part where I simply am not human No I'm not a robot but maybe I should be If there was a way to glue me back together I would hope to it But screw it I came out not screaming and crying but ready to start dying 7. I'm Dead, I Think? I don't think you ever saw your own face in the mirror
I don't think you remember me Do you remember Every time I see your eye I see it I remember it to I don't think I've ever seen myself smile Tell him I left it under the mat Yes, the one outside the front door Portal to hell I can't see our reflections anymore I need all of the attention I drain of their soft hands and heavy wings Won't you let me go I don't know what my face looks like His face Send me an angel Save me from myself I'm running away again I keep dreaming about the apocalypse I'm going to die I can’t stop it I can’t stop it I've accepted it Why have I taken morality I felt the cold snow silence my heart I saw the look of fear in the eyes of the damned What is it I'm ready to die For a moment I felt like I knew what it was I saw for a moment what it meant to be dead I saw myself cry I'm shaking now I don't remember my face I feel the gun to my temple Blade to my throat Breeze on my sweat soaked face as I sit here Knowing what comes next Am I okay with mortality? I'm shaking
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1. Were You Listening 2. The Man With Soulless Eyes 3. Missing 4. nomoreangles 5. I Just Want Resolution 6. Blasphemy 7. Vodka and Old Gods 1. Were You Listening? Yesterday I thought I died But I was disappointed to find I was still alive I couldn't hear anyone speak But I saw their lips moving Were they talking to me? 2. The Man With Soulless Eyes It's so cold here When I cry my tears freeze With my clouded breath I can't see I shout but my voice dies And I scream but it's only lies When I cry from my soulless eyes It's so cold here Give me the rains I want to steer! My love is cold like the snow so I'll Crash the carriage into the lifeless trees And let my bones rest in the snow covered leaves My blood is a brilliant vermilion paint Melting the frost It turns to brown rust And I swear to God it will taint All the lovers who fallow Into passionless frost With their hearts beating so faint Maybe twenty years from this time you'll find my bones Cold and alone Filed with moss and snow Let my sorrow wash over me and haunt me on the marrow Then you won't be lost in my soulless eyes My blood no matter how delicately it splashes on the white canvass Shall never be as brilliant as the stars that splatter the blackened sky And just as before When I close the door My sore arms will turn from red to brown And when I close my eyes I'll wish they were part of the sky Their black and empty abyss are soulless as a night with no moon And without the moon I will crash this carriage Without la lune to illuminate the earth's winter skin I'll be lost in the pale flesh And be let to crash into the black bones of the forest Spilling my blood so fresh The forest empty as my eyes Will capture my soul when I die And I'll be lost to time Oh what a crime? I shan't be missed All those lies Ah yes, I'm the man with soulless eyes 3. Missing It reminds me of something I can't remember Like when you know you've lost something But you can't remember what you lost And honestly, it's a bit like drinking cold coffee You can't quite enjoy the bitterness it brings you And honestly, I'm missing something important here When I've proved myself right You still want to tell me I'm wrong And you can't give me what I want So why am I even trying You never were intriguing and I'm just going through the motions Just going through the motions I can't and I won't let you know if I have emotions Nothing is pure or good with me so don't expect anything please I'm sorry I made the mistake But I can't take back things like that, now can I? 4. nomoreangles oh if you let us we will latch onto you and fall deeply madly infatuated with you too if you let us in we will grip onto everything and pull it apart let us live oh boy if you let us in we will pull at your wings mother me mercy i see youre angelic and i cannot resist oh the wings oh the feathers i cant help myself claws and eye extra limbs limping limping i cant help myself oh just you just you not revenge theres no need for that i just want your feathers claws extra eye tall tall strike me down i know nothing about you i just want to someone like me ah no no no not again dont let yourself fall for another angel little demon boy demon boy dont do that no more angels no 5. I Just Want Resolution Grip onto me with your lust If my friendship is true then I'll let you take my love If I say, "I love you" break my bones Snap my wrists covered in blood Though my knuckles are bleeding this sap is not innocent And though I wish to tear your world apart with my teeth It's sadly ironic it's you who's come to reap what I have left Grip my neck as hard as you can Crush my hopes and dreams Crush my body, just like flowers beneath your rough hands And even as my blood pools around me I'm let to believe Oh god, you're not the one killing me But how can that be when you're breathing And I'm left faithless If I'm the victim then why do I feel like the villain? I'm drowning but you keep telling me it's the other way around But why aren't you struggling? Why are you laughing at the tears in my eyes as I gasp for air? I came here for solace but I was given nothing but bad memories And was told to make something of them And instead of solidarity I received pity There is no resolution in drowning in your agony There is no solace in picking at the scab that will never heal And so, I chose to sleep with my demons Claws and teeth will comfort me Since your soft flesh only cut me And I will hold them close to me when I dream of you Because I know they will always be there to keep me safe And I know they will always tell the truth If humans are inherently evil what is a hell hound to me or you You've beat all the good left in me And I'm soon doomed to repeat your blasphemy This is not resolution If I have to shake the hands that tore my dreams right out from my scalp There is no such thing as feeling resolved When all you know is the crimes of Gods 6. blasphemy you'll never see me as a martyr in the eyes of your monotheistic god the deities aren't man and they do not rule like your false kings how can you pass judgment over me how could i have been so wicked in the past life to deserve this the fates have this planned out for me i will paint myself in the blood of your god so you will look at me i am the man you need i am your synthetic messiah wash your bones with my holy tears your western lord is the one i will bend my stigmata is infected as my wounds seep distrust 7. Vodka and Old Gods It tastes like death and decay
Even though it's sweet it rips the roof of my mouth It burns my stomach like acid But it calms my brain and restless heart beat My skull hurts, fighting tears that have been tugging at the corners of my eyes I'm so loved why am I so sad My bones are cold as ice even when I'm wrapped in a thousand layers of black wool My shoulders ache and my arms ache and my nails ache like I've been clawing out of the cold and cracked winter earth Bounding from the ground like spring itself My throat burns from fighting these tears I'm so loved but why then, why am I so achingly sad I'm wandering in a glass I can see myself looking into my own eyes I'm empty and sad What do I want? Come with me let me take your pain away into the abyss Whiteness blinds me as an angels’ voice sings Is she singing to me Rolling in tears and dripping in sweat I drink fire Despite the burning in my eyes I don't think I'll be able to sleep for a thousand year 1. Heavy Heart 2. Cliché Fruit Pit 3. Sweet 4. Chalk Lies 1. Heavy Heart If all the love I had for you could be converted to gold I should be the richest man to live But the cliché truth remains That in my youth I shall never be able to love you If I could collect the stars And give them on a sting to you Would it be enough to make up For all of the galaxies and star dust filing your eyes Would you be surprised? If I could empty the sea And give you every ounce Would it be enough my dearest And would it make up for all I am not And all that I am? If I could collect all the light And shine it on you Then supposed it be enough To compensate for my morbid fate? Would that be enough for you my beloved Would that make up for all the tears I have made you weep From when I scream in my sleep From when my eyes are sunken so deep Would that make up for it all? 2. Cliché Fruit Pit Cheesy and classic, I understand why eating the fruit of Eden curses man Ignorance is bliss and the truth cuts deep Tasting something so sweet is the most painful thing I have ever endured Cavities I cry I have cavities from this peach I sunk my teeth deep into the fruit and bit right down to the pit My my how does my jaw ache Grinding though cyanide and core of a stone fruit I'm drowning in sweet nectar and I can't breathe but I still don't have enough I need more now the sweet taste has touched my lips Rose and jasmine will forever permeate my senses It burns my throat All three still sting but it was drawn from my lips Drowning in sweet sweet honey I gurgle out a cry They bubble up to the surface and pop on the feathers of angel wings as a terrible chorus of my voice lift into the clear night air Overused and powerless in the wrong context I save it for the very last as every breath I draw is wasted on these words I try to bite more off the fruit but I cannot tear any more flesh from the pit My yearning is more true than any fantastical nights I have found the dangers of starting the gods in the face 3. Sweet So hot it give you chills Amber and sweet like honey It burns your throat It's potent like cloves and rose It stings Everything is golden Sap roles down your face Roles down to you lap Sweat pores into the glistening pool Like melting You'll start to drool Your heart pounds blood through your sweating hands Can't gab into it The fire is dim Can't see Soft like a pillow yet jagged are the bones jutting from you Blood sweet like wine You are the divine Your horns crack glass as you soon pass You're truly here for a good time Sex and sweet blood The pools he sips from dark like his eyes Black like the night His smile says hello but his eyes make you want to go The flame is bright And phantoms haunt you tonight 4. Chalk Lies I said to him "I want to grip you tighter desperately but I'm afraid you are made of chalk."
He said to me, "I promise I'm not made of chalk as long as you promise to not grip any tighter." And then he asked me to grip tighter, he told me it was fine despite my promise. But when my hands curled around him and gasped on, he crumbled to chalk dust. "You promised me you weren't made from chalk!" I shrieked. "You promised to not grip tighter!" His powdered remains shouted back to me. "But! You told me to grip tighter!" I cried back to him. "I never said anything like that! Look what YOU did to me!" Finger pointing, playing the victim, it's all my fault because I did what you said... But that's just how you are. |
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